Identity

An old rock song goes like this,

Does anybody know what time it is?

Does anybody really care?

I think it is something like that when it comes to Identity:

Does anybody really know who I am?

Does anybody really care?

This is one of those subjects that can seem abstract, but in fact everyone is trying to advance their own identity and our actions are motivated by an underlying script that is often not recognized.

We automatically compare ourselves - with what others have, with how they look, with whether their accomplishments are greater or lesser than ours, with xxxxx.  It is almost annoying.  It is energy-draining.  I am not exempt.

But in our best moments, we are focused not on trying to obtain value, but in  worship.  It lifts us out of the "rat race" of trying to increase our value, and we find that we simply are, and are OK, in the place of recognizing One who is worthy.

It's not that looking at how our friends think of us, or how we rate compared to others at work, or whether we are as good a public speaker or student or athlete or brain is totally mistaken.  The fact is that our Identity is found in relationship to something outside of ourselves.  We do not give identity to ourselves - it is bestowed.  The problem is where we look to find that "bestow-ment."  

Identity is like the North Star - it is where we are located in relation to a fixed point.  That is why the break-down of the family is so devastating to society - the "fixed point" of the nuclear family, when taken away, leaves a wandering sense of not belonging, there is no "fixed point" from which to find ourselves.  For in this sense, Identity is not found within.

Ultimately, it is to be found in where we are in relation to God - and what He says about who I am.

Humility

Humility.  Incarnation.

The assignment was to construct an experience where we were setting aside our rights on behalf of another's, where we were emptying ourselves in order to see Divine life flow down.

I don't feel like it went like that!

As one of the students, Kara, said - "This is one of those times where the assignment finds us."  I found that to be only too true in my case.  The assignment was given on Thursday, and on Friday morning I found myself in a Peacemaker Mediation proceeding, with others, seeking to understand and be understood, looking for some common ground and a solution to our differences.  It was a business dispute regarding something in the past, of which the details are not important.  I don't really even like to write about it, or publish it on the web.  I want to honor the parties involved.  But the fact is that these issues, these situations, are not far from any of us, and in this case not far from me.

We came to some resolution regarding the issue at hand, and then I struggled.  I had a hard time recovering from a somewhat intense period of my life.  I questioned the process, the outcome;  I felt emotionally depleted;  I don't think this is the kind of "emptying" that the assignment envisioned!  But there was an opportunity to exercise humility, to try to understand, to not seek my own interest, to continue to reach out.  Several times in the process I recalled our RTI class and subject theme, and it called me up higher, encouraged me to look at this situation from a different point of view.

Something is getting worked on (or getting worked out) in my life.  I just hope I have the humility to receive it!